bitter.sweets.of.life

I can't wait to watch incredible hulk! this movie is gonna be awesome!

aaaaa, I hate monday! after enjoying 2 days holiday -well it's not actually a holiday, it's a weekend, but let supposed it's a holiday- I got the summer semester! huff, incredibly fast, damn fast. but I promised, this semester will be better than previous ones!
I just used my free account at Parkland server to make my own website, and here is the result I got so far.

Selasa, 5pm, duduk di lab sambil nunggu rendering buat presentasi besok pagi jam 8, fiuh, rasanya minggu2 ini bener2 penih siksaan dan rintangan, ujian dan laen2. dari 6 ujian and projects, yang selesai cuma javascript, CGI dan game design project (masih ada lagi di game design paperna, hiks hiks) untung masih bisa pompa semangat!
anyway, tadi malem tidur jam 2am, karena nganterin temen ke Hospital dolo terus disana kurang lebih habis 2-3 jam, maklum udah malem2 terus dia harus xray karena knee na bengkok. sampe apartment jam 1an, bingung antara laper and ngantuk, setelah mikir sejenak ternyata lebih milih tidur, jadi cuma grab juice + swiss rolls yang ga cocok banget di makan jam segitu, sebelum tidur buka laptop dolo dan ternyata dapet beberapa email yang "insanely urgent" jadi bales dolo deh sekalian online buat say hi ke temen2, walaupun cuma sejenak.
seperti yang di duga, bangun kesiangan dan sarapan seadanya, terus keluar pintu dan pas banget bus na dateng. sampe di Parkland jam 8, kerjain final project buat game design class yang jam 11 harus udah selesai dan di presentasikan. untung lah, saya dan teman2 se team bekerja sama dan akhirna selesai juga game na. yang bikin aku seneng, game na ga jelek2 amat, malah tergolong bagus, begitu kita presentasikan game and open .exe na, ada yang bilang "wow, it's so cool!" tau kan gimana gembiranya kalo jerih payah kita di hargai ama orang laen!
and yeap, masih ada kurang lebih 4 exams lagi! Semangat!
click here to see my lovely game, left click on the file called "kidnapper.exe"

so, during the final exams weeks, everything is going crazier and crazier, even more! here is my to do list for this 3 Days ::
1. Finish the Kinematics Model (3D Animation Class)
model here means the boxes, spheres, skeletons and joins, the plan of his movement as well.
2. Finishing Final Project of CSC155, create a blog
this is the crazy one, I got really left behind
3. Javascripts final problems
I got 3, one finished and two to go
4. Flash Animation for the Spring show
it's almost done, just need more time
5. Topics in Web Programming labs
I think I only needs one more, I finished the others

I thought you are here
Sit next to me and wipe these tears
I realize that you are so far
Made me just like a point among bunch of bars

You just need to look at me
Crying alone under your misery
That smile just another fake
None of those can make me really awake

Nice and warm you showed
Mean nothing but hollowed

I used to sit alone in that chair
Then you came to erase my despair
Lifted me up with cheer and shiny joy
But finally it became a memory of destroy

Now you're hurting me
Stab me from the back
Paint my days black
Now I can't even recognize my own track

If I have one chance
I wish your absence
I do hope to not see your face
Go and move away to another place

Leave me alone

This march, there is something special, nope nope it's not Doomsday movie, nor the lovely spring break for students in USA, but it's a cookie, called Girl scout Cookie. Friend of mine in French Club brought some for us, she always said that it's the best cookie in US, lots of people crazy about this cookie.
Let see from the historical side for the starting point, this cookie was being sold since 1917, it was not by girl scout, but by American Troop, they did that to raise fund for their unit, and on 1933, the girl scout of Philadelphia started to sell the same cookie and for the same reason, it was only girl scout, not boy or anybody else, that's why it's called Girl Scout Cookie.
You can only find this cookie on March, maybe that's why it so special, and they are vary in Price and type, let say roughly 2-5 bucks, depends on the spot where you buy and what kinda cookie you want. There are several type of the cookie, those are Thin Mints, Do-si-Dos (Peanut Butter Sandwiches), Shortbread, Lemonades, Cinna-Spins, and Caramel Delites which is my favorite.
The way they sell is standing on the street with a small table and lined up those cookies, offering that to any Pedestrian, or maybe they do it door by door, knock every door in their neighborhood, once again, Only in March. why March? who know? might be they have bunch of programs on Summer, like summer camp or whatever is that.
For me, the cookie is nice, or maybe not bad, not so special, I still have no idea why Americans crazy about it. that's enough for the information. thanks for coming guys...

I still recall when most of my friends were amazed when they heard that I am going to study in US, I don't know for sure what they thought but they have no idea how hard studying here. At the first couple months, language barrier became one of the problems, it was not about the English proficiency but about the accent, most of us, international students, have a strong accent regardless where we come from. Day by day, we became more and more familiar with those people, and we faced another challenge, school work. One of the differences between the system here and in Indonesia is people here will give more assignments and works, particularly in Computer Science which based on "doing" not only "reading".
Last semester, I was dying because of how time consuming my classes are, finished one project and got another one, it won't stop. I admit that it works, those things made our skills sharper. On my high school, I used to be happy when weekends came, but now whether weekends or school days are the same for me, I spend my beautiful weekends with laptop and books, doing the homeworks and creating projects. Once again, those are good things.
Another thing which is interesting to share is the cultural thing. I didn't only share with Americans, but also others like Brazilian, Egyptian, Turkish, South African, etc. Why? because I found not only American who is living here, there are so many immigrants. Most classes I take, I found another foreigner, some of them are a citizen of US and some aren't, a visa holder like me. It's fun to tell them what kinda things you have in your country and to listen how they live in their country.
Right now, I always think what will I gonna do when I head back home, it still so blur. I can just work and earn some moneys, but I don't think it will enough, I mean I won't stop studying, I'll be stopped some day, not now obviously. In the other hand, I need to implement skills I got here, it will be pointless if I don't use my skills, it means I break the purpose of this program. I think I got addicted with studying abroad, I wanna find more program, more scholar.
Homesickness is one of the most suffering things I've been through, you got lots of friends here but it won't be the same, there are some family roles which is almost disappeared. When I opened my eyes in the morning, I started to wonder where the voices of my brother and sister's fight, where a cup of tea which my mother always made, and where the sound of my father's foot steps. I missed that kinda simple thing. My adviser told me that we are now different, we are not the same like when we met them at the first time, we transformed to mid-western, even though a little bit, we changed. So when I get back home, I will face another culture shock, indeed.