Do you see now I am standing here? With a bucket of roses, I am wiping my tears Reminiscing how could you lighten up those days? You kept me smile, held my feet stand steady To my world, you have shared your beauty
Now tell me what I am suppose to do Facing your disappearance is way too hard to be done Sorrow’s coming when I recalled you are the only fun Those memories are too sweet to be forgotten Not with 10 years, hundreds or even thousand
It’s been a while since you left me But not even a single day I went thru without missing you I was wondering if you were here, what you would be Will you tap my back and push me to go thru? Have I told you that I love you? I dunno how, but still I love you I dunno why, but still I miss you I am and will always be here for you!
I walk slowly on the street of Desperate Watching those kids crying and holding burden I can see in their eyes they hope a lot to what we called fate Not everybody can feel their emotion, because it’s hidden Hidden and covered by that annoying melody For me it’s annoying but for them it’s a sound of beauty From that melody They capture an image of a table full of rice and vegetables They imagine a picture of decent clothes to go playing They seize illustrations of books to go studying and one cute bag pack
Do you think they asked too much? I am sure they also wonder where the God is I am afraid they hesitate about His mighty love All they want to do is keeping their mom’s stove, if they have a mom
Move from one ride to another ride Sometimes they even show no doubt to fight Because it’s the requirement to get a penny They don’t give a damn about the hot weather They don’t wanna move even it’s raining I started to wonder do they have a lunch. I think they have From the garbage can in the corner of the street They look for the rice we through away They fight with those dirty mice Don’t ask, they drink with no ice A half of clean water which somebody left will be gold for them
Brothers Hang on over there Because I know you don’t have any other place to go Now I can’t do anything to help you out But someday I’ll clean up all your problems Someday we’ll enjoy a decent meal together in one big table Just hang on, pray and keep struggling!
Comrades Tell me when those times will come again I am here still waiting for it to happen You know I’ll always open my arms for you
Comrades I wonder what you are doing now Are you still using your car we always used? Even now, do you keep my favorite movie in your shelf?
Comrades Do you know that I am closing my eyes right now? It’s really hurt to see that you are not next to me I’ll open my eyes when I can hear your voice
Comrades If you can spin the wheel of time please do Make me laugh again with all of you Let me join with your tears and lend a shoulder to cry on Allow me to spend all my day to share prayers with you Consent me to tell you my stories on my past and my dreams on the future Please do, please
If you are only dream during my night Please, don’t let anyone wake me up tomorrow And I pray to the God and hope He will make the longest night I could have Let me sleep and see you dance next to me I don’t mind spending my whole week only to see you
If you are only imagination during my muse Then I wanna be the biggest dreamer I wanna leave reality and live in my imagination with you You ain’t my everything But everything will feel nothing without you
If you are sunshine during my day Then I will finish my 24 hours with the butterflies on my yard Dancing and singing happily celebrating your sparkle So the world know that your existence is the only thing matter
If I can’t have you on this life Then I pray as much as I can to have you on my next life So the Angels know how hard live without the one who makes you smile is
“I thought I could rely on you!” it was the way my ex-boss ended his call. I failed to clean up the tower which would be checked by the guy who uses our service in the next day. Back then, my job was actually a technician whose duty like managing the PCs, software and hardware. I also got extra duties such as clean up the air conditioner and helping my boss to maintain the towers. Well, I worked in a game center but the company I worked on has more then one business to run and it includes tower for Telkom Co, if I am not mistaken.
I still quite remember, it was almost late afternoon around 2.30 pm. me and the other 2 guys who actually would clean up the tower, the air conditioner of the tower actually, arrived at area called Gedangan. We had two towers to clean that day, one in the Gedangan and the other in the area which is near with Lapindo’s mud flood. My boss called me and told me that the guy from Telkom will check tomorrow for routine inspection. In addition, he also needed to make sure that the tower and its area are clean; if not then I got another extra task.
To be honest, I found it was pretty grimy. Easily I saw plastic bag and leaves over here and there, it was just NOT neat. I was obviously confused with all of those; I needed to clean that tower and another one which will take an hour to go there.I wanted to leave my job as soon as possible that day; I’ve got a girlfriend to pick up at 5.30pm. That’s why I was in rush. I didn’t clean the tower in a proper way; I just left and went to another one. Even though I extracted everything, I still left the last tower around 5.45pm. My ex-girlfriend was the only thing came up in my mind; I didn’t give a damn about my boss and his craps.
So on the way went to her office, my phone rang and I saw my ex-boss’ name on its display. He was getting mad of me as hell, he said that the guy did the pre-inspection and found everything was dirty. He also mentioned that it was the dirtiest tower he’s ever seen. Thus, my boss decided to go to the tower by himself and see. He demanded me to get to the tower one more time. He hanged up the phone with a sentence and I still have that sentence in my mind, it was “I thought I could rely on you!” That second, I forgot about my ex-girlfriend so I called her and said I couldn’t pick her up that day because of bla bla bla. I prayed to my God and hoped that my ex-boss wouldn’t murder me and he didn’t. God helped me; he made a hard raid around his area so he couldn’t come out of his place. Again, he called me and said that it would be better if we clean up the tower together tomorrow. YAY me…
The point is choosing one, never try to do all the options you have if you actually NEED to choose one. Doing both might be make sense but you are about to notice in the end that it ain’t work.
